The past month of my life has been a difficult season. I have felt very much alone with silence from God. I have prayed, sought wise counsel, searched, and still had no clear answers to some very pressing questions. I was feeling especially discouraged last night, and wrestled with God about opening His word. I must admit that I do not always feel like reading my Bible. (Side note- I’ve used the word feel several times in the past few sentences. That is key- my knowledge of God does not always connect with my heart. I KNOW He is still there when He is silent.) I finally opened my Bible and turned to where I am reading in Deuteronomy. Now, when I am feeling down, Deuteronomy is not my first choice for verses of comfort. But God saw fit to let me land on a chapter about the wilderness.
For the LORD your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He knows your going through this great wilderness. These forty years the LORD your God has been with you. You have lacked nothing. Deuteronomy 2:7 ESV
The Lord does not forget His people: the Israelites in the wilderness or His daughter in her own wilderness. Does that mean I will not wander around a bit longer? Not necessarily. I may wander around much longer. I may never see an earthly Canaan. But my hope is not in what this life holds but rather what I know is on the other side. Heaven is my home, and I can trust the One who cares for me to do so even in the bleak desert. So I wait, and I do what I do not feel like doing all the time- I trust in My God even in the wilderness.
Some of the most convicting and encouraging words I’ve read have come from Numbers and Deuteronomy!